Shaylyn's Life

Car? Yes, Please!

2009-12-15T19:41:00.000-07:00

New...Car...
Used...but it's still new to me :) (I'll post pics soon.)
I bought a 2006 Civic today and it is the best thing I have bought in my adult life.
It runs well, drives well, and looks oh so nice! My old car was a '98 Oldsmobile that was started to fall apart and would have cost me more to fix it then what I "put down" on an newer car. And now I have a car that I will be able to keep running and I plan to keep it for For-Ev-Er. I love it that much ;)

Ch-Ch-Changes

2009-12-07T21:28:00.000-07:00

This last week I've started a new diet, which doesn't restrict anything, but rather makes me aware of what I'm eating. It's been the best change I've probably done. I hope :) Haha I have only done it for four days as of tonight and it's soooo-oo easy! The website is http://www.calorie-count.com/ and it's a free site that you upload info such as your weight, height, age and what you eat for every meal. I just spend about 10 minutes each day (or a few minutes after each meal), and upload my food intake and activity levels. Every once and awhile you upload your weight andthe website tracks everything. It shows you how long it will take to get you to a healthy BMI, the amount of calories you need, etc. My goal is to get to my healthy BMI by June 2010. :) My sister uses the website as well, and she is doing really well!

Ute Game

2009-11-22T19:34:00.000-07:00

We Must Protect This House!

This last Saturday, I got to go to a Utah Football game with my brother, his girl, her mom, my aunt and my sister. The Utes won, 38 to 7! What a game!

Before I left to meet up with my sister at her house, I found a new Ute sweatshirt by my door. My mom bought me it when I thought she was running errands. And it must have been hadrd for her to buy it because she is an avid BYU fan!! Haha we got a picture before the game with both of us in our new sweatshirts...

(the story behind the picture is funny...I thought she was doing a peace sign...but of course, she was doing "# 1"...she thought it was symbolic.)

The best part of the day, besides the game, was getting to meet my brother's new girl "friend" (we're unsure if they are dating or not). She is such a sweetheart! She's only a year older than me so it was easy to get along with her. And I love that her and Ty get along so well! :)

Show Me What I'm Looking For

2009-11-12T12:29:00.000-07:00

This song has been replaying in my head for the past couple days...I haven't heard it in awhile though. I think I'm trying to tell myself to go find something out there that I need or am looking for. :) Possibly a hobby??? I'm not sure; I just felt like sharing the lyrics. Enjoy!

Show Me What I'm Looking For, Carolina Liar

Wait, I'm wrong
Should've done better than this
Please, I'll be strong
I'm finding it hard to resist

So show me what I'm looking for

Save me, I'm lost
Oh Lord I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Oh Lord

Don't let go
I've wanted this far too long
Mistakes become regrets
I've learned to love abuse
Please show me what I'm looking for
Save me, I'm lost
Oh Lord I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Oh Lord

Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for

Save me, I'm lost
Oh Lord I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
To save me from being confused
Wait, I'm wrong
I can't do better than this
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused

Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Oh Lord

Halloween '09

2009-10-31T23:29:00.000-06:00

Halloween. My favorite Holiday.
We didn't hand out candy...I didn't trick or treat...I didn't go to a party. But it was still a good Halloween!
On Friday, we got to dress in costumes for work. I went as a rocker/ballerina. Haha Tutu and all! It was way fun. It was a way busy work day and all the kids were in a good mood. Here's what all the dental assistants dressed up as...

I visited my dad, stepmom, half brother and stepbrother after a whole day of relaxing. It was fun even though I was sick (or "am sick"? I'm still sick) because my little half brother, who is three, kept sharing his candy with me. Hahaha and it wasn't the ones he didn't like...It was the good stuff, like Snickers and Starburst. It was also really good to catch up with everyone.

So even if I am sick for Halloween night, and even if I didn't get to spend it with my boyfriend or friends, I still had a good night.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

What I did this Friday

2009-10-16T22:58:00.001-06:00

...hmm...what shall I write about my Friday?

Well,
I woke up to an empty home and decided to clean my room. In the middle of cleaning, my brother shows asks me to help to help him beak down boxes and put it on the street. Wet cardboard and leaves = Nasty smell! But it was worth it in the end when the backyard was all clean.

A few hours after that, I picked my mom up from my grandparents house after she helped my brother sell his Jeep. We went to our own rooms when we got home but later reconvened to watch Ghosts of Girlfriends Past (nice huh).
It was a movie with lots of ex-girlfriends, talk about sex, and, finally, at the end, some moral fiber poked through. Yay for awkward moments caused by sex-filled movies!!! :D Hahaha

After the movie, I ran on the treadmill because...hem...[whispers] I ate way too many coconut M&M's. (Which are delicious!!!) Running is great; try it one day! ;)

My Friday was an normal day, but sometimes that's the way to go. Tomorrow, I'll be sure to have an adventure and write about it. That way, my blog won't stink with blogged "normal" days.

Boo. Ya.

Side note #1. Halloween is one of my favorite holidays. :) I wish my family would celebrate it more though. For sure I will this year. But I dunno how yet...
Side note #2. Raspberry Iced Tea is AWESOME! :) Try that AND running. You'll feel great. Promise.

What I want to accomplish...soon :)

2009-10-14T19:50:00.000-06:00

There are some things that I want to accomplish in the near future...

1.) Start playing the guitar, piano and violin again.

2.) Get accepted into SLCC's dental hygiene program

3.) Buy my first car

4.) Start a really good exercise program

5.) Write more

6.) Excell in work

I'm preeee-tty sure I can accomplish everything on this list. I just want to finish it by this time next year.

Bored...too many decisions!

2009-09-24T18:54:00.000-06:00

So...

pretty much I have no idea what school to go to now. I feel like I'm a senior in high school again! hahah.

My choices:

Weber (been there! done that!)
SLCC
SUU (meh...just thought I'd throw it out there)

All of these schools are known for their dental hygiene programs...but SLCC is the school. It has the most update technology AND it's closest to where I live.
But....
If I did go to SLCC, I'd have to quit Weber, apply for SLCC and reapply for school loans. Is going through all this trouble worth it???? Well, I think so...(sometimes). I didn't like Weber much. And SUU is too far away; I'd have to find housing down there, which means I'd have to wait until next fall to start.
So....
SLCC it is!!!!

If anyone has suggestions on which school I should go to in the spring for dental assisting and hygiene, leave a comment. Pur-lease...? :D

Family Photos and Helping Out

2009-09-23T19:59:00.001-06:00

We had family photos taken with my dad last Sunday...and they turned out soooo-oo cute! It was hard to get everyone "in the mood" for taking pictures. The evening started out rocky: People were late (don't worry sis, you weren't the only ones late and it wasn't your fault traffic was bad) so dinner got started past five. Then we had dinner and by the time it was finished, it was almost six o'clock. My brother was onry to get pictures done because he had a date. My dad was grumpy too; he wouldn't change his clothes to match the rest of us. And when he wouldn't change, my little half brother (following his stubborn father) wouldn't change either! After thirty or so minutes, and my individual photoshoot, we finally got the whole family for group pictures. The results. . . :)

We used family cameras to take the photos and will edit them as we please. I think it worked out pretty swell.

Besides group pictures, we took indiviual pictures, too. Mine were first.

LoL. That was a lot of pictures of me, I know. Hahaha My sister and step-mom both had high tech cameras taking pictures of me in many different poses. The four above were the best of each pose.

My brother was next in line. :) He would only do two poses but got a great shot that shows his personality in my opinion.

(I think this pic is cute/funny...you can just imagine what's going on in his head)

My and my sis took some funny pictures, too. Haha we like making faces. Check out these.

But...Now and then we get a cute pic in between the silly ones :)

The last pics taken were of my sis and her husband (which I took.) They are such a cute couple. I love taking pictures of them. Usually my sister knows what poses what she wants but sometimes...sometimes her husband has to be patient. Which he is. :) Here are their pictures...

I love this pic of Brooke. It's really cute and shows off her girlie side :)

Despite all the grumpiness and bad lighting, the pictures turned out really cute.

After Sunday, I saw more of my family, more than usual, which was cool. I helped my brother out finacially and we talked a lot on the phone. I love the fact that he, the oldest, can ask me for help when he needs it. He has always been a person I can look up to and ask for help. So it's kinda cool that I can do that for him, too. :) My sister does that, too. She is always willing to listen and give adivce when she can. My siblings are the best!

New job, exciting news...

2009-09-16T23:01:00.000-06:00

I received a text a bit ago that made me so dang, effin happy! My friend is engaged!!! Crazy, huh? She's been dating her finace for a little over a year. . . They are so cute!! :D As you can tell, I'm very happy for her. They'll be getting married March 12th (which is near my bday).

Another exciting thing happening to me personally is...I got the new job that I mentioned earlier! I'm now a dental assistant and I work with my cousin. It's so great! We specialize in children ages one to eighteen. I love, love LOVE it! I start working full time in October and will be leaving Payless then. I'm sad to leave my friends but I'll still visit them. :)

That's all I wanted to share today,

Peace!

Highly Motivated

2009-09-08T20:44:00.000-06:00

Today was such a good day!

went for a post-wisdom teeth surgery check up. It went well.
took a nice, long nap while watching The Two Towers. Awesome.
went to work and had a laid back day. They also had pizza in the break room!
scheduled a meeting to meet my new boss
set up new office so I can print off my resume to give to my new boss. It's a nice set up!

So all in all it was a good day...I feel motivated to do stuff, such as exercise, clean, get a new job, get ready for school...etc, etc. And I feel motivated to write. It feels so good to get stuff done. Or as my brother says "just do it. Get it done." or "getting shit done" Pardon my french ;)
I'm starting to love my life again. I was reminded today about my friend that past away a few months back...I was so horrified and damaged by her death that it has taken me 7 months to get back to even 50% of what I can be. I miss her so much and I give her a lot of credit of who I am today. She influenced me a great deal and I love her for that. I think I'll always have a hole in my life where she was, but I'm feeling better. I'm getting better.
I think why it's taken me this long to bounce back from all the stuff that has happened this past year is because I've realized all the opportunities or people I have lost or could lose. Maybe that's why I'm so motivated...I want to make the most of life and get the most out of it that I can.

Curtain (old poem)

2009-09-02T22:47:00.002-06:00

Curtain

The void is filling slowly

I understand more clearly.

The curtain has fallen...

Act One is complete.

A life was taken,

but taken not in defeat.

I love you now,

I'll love you always.

Replacing you cannot be done.

But...

The void is filling slowly,

I understand more clearly.

The curtain has fallen...

Act Two begins.

To all who read this...

I wrote this thinking of Kristy and all those who knew her or have crossed paths with her. I want you all to know that there is an Act Two...and we all get to play a part in it someday.
Love you all, Shaylyn

Falling Cards (old poem)

2009-09-02T22:43:00.000-06:00

Falling Cards, by Shaylyn

Pounding my head against the glass

Bracing my hand along the wall

I stare outside the window

Wishing I could fall.

I tried to deal with the Lord

"A Life for a Life"

But as I asked him to save you

I was cut by a knife

The words were sharp

But my pain had dulled

As I had dealt with the Lord

I had already begun to fold.

Pounding my head against the glass

Bracing my hand along the wall

I stand still

and let Life's Playing cards fall.

Wedding pictures, rings and engagements

2009-09-02T22:08:00.000-06:00

Roses that John gave me for our "3 month anniversary"

For starters, don't worry...I'm not engaged or secretly married.
(Yet...?)
Everywhere I look, people I went to school with are getting married or are already engaged. Some have been married for a year or so. It's CRAZY!!! Today I had a weird dream that I think was brought on by pain pills and lack of normal sleep. I had a dream that John proposed to me and I accepted. There was a ring, stars and the typical engagement kissy fest. We had a HUGE, WHITE wedding with LOTS of people. (Which, if any of you who know me, is unlike me at all) I don't really like weddings. But then I also catch myself looking through friends' wedding/engagement pictures on FB and I picture myself like that.
To me, a wedding is more like a work-filled and anxiety-induced occasion Shouldn't it be something more fun and exciting to start off a life with someone else?
Why am I thinking about weddings so much right now? I've always told my family that I would be 27 years old before I got married. So why, at 19, am I thinking about marriage and all that jazz?
Hmm....contagious? Yes...Yes I think weddings and love in general can be contagious. But I also think there is such a thing as "true" love.
Anyways, I've freaked myself out enough thinking about weddings. I'm done writing on this subject :)

John and I

2009-08-29T05:20:00.000-06:00

I decided that if I'm going to have a blog, I should dedicate an entry or two (te-he) to my boyfriend and I.

John and I will have been dating three months next week. We've already have a rough patch, but our relationship has been strengthened by it; I'm so lucky that we didn't lose what we have. John is so caring and funny and he fits me perfectly. Through ups and downs, we can read each other's emotions and we know how to cheer one another up. If I could change anything about our relationship, it would be that I could see him more often. John and I are able to hang out once or twice a week, and sometimes it gets hard because we get grumpy when we don't see each other. But we manage. :) We like to watch movies and talk about anything. Sometimes we make each other snacks or we go shopping for random stuff (one time we almost bought Transformers toys. Another time we bought shirts to color on for each other!)

Even though I've dated John for only 3 months, I've known him for almost two years. We met while working at Target; he still works there after two years! I quickly found a new job after working there for only a few months. After a year or so since I quit working at Target, I went shopping there one afternoon. John was working in Electronics. I remember walking past him and recognizing him, but kept walking. Next thing I know, a guy was running up to me asking if I needed help. I was taken back by how he approached me so I said "No, I'm okay." I started to turn away when I decided, Yeah, maybe I do need help. I turned back around and asked him where electrical tape was. John expertly showed me where it was and asked me why I needed it. I told him because I was thinking about trying out for Winterguard again. He kept asking questions, and I kept answering. (Our relationship is still like that, but now I ask questions, too. :-)) We talked for a few minutes, followed by an awkward silence. I then told him I'll see him later.

When I was almost to the door, John caught up to me and asked if he could give me his number. I asked, "I can give you my number, too." But since he couldn't carry his phone with him while on the clock, I put his number in my cell. Once I got out to my car I sent him a quick text and wonder if he would text back. Later that night he did and we have talked almost every day since!

How Cute Are We Together!? Awww...

The funny thing about how John and I started out was the timing of it all. I had gotten out of a bad, ba-d, BAD relationship just months before and my best friend had died in a car crash around the same time as the breakup. I wasn't ready to date, mostly likely because I was re-learning to take care of myself and be myself. But when John and I hung out a couple times, I could tell that I would be dating him in the near future. About a month and a half after our number exchange in Target, John and I started dating. Maybe more will come of our that exchange then I ever thought possible. :) And in a way, something has.

Wisdom Teeth, or lack thereof

2009-08-29T04:52:00.000-06:00

This morning I got my wisdom teeth out. My mom and I left the house super early so we had to wait 20 minutes to get in the room. Once we got in, it took the surgeron and his two assistants to set up. They took my blood pressure and my oxygen and asked me a few questions. Then they put the IV in me. That's all I remember. Haha. My mom said it took them 23 minutes to take out four impacted teeth. Impacted means that the tooth was either hitting another tooth, growing in a funky direction, or just plain hard to get out. 23 minutes to take out 4 teeth!!! Lol.

Go to THIS oral surgeon. He's awesome.

When I came to in the recovery room, I remember seeing a nurse that look like my sister. I also rememeber seeing my mom and giving her the thumbs up when she asked how I was (I did that a lot at first because it was hard to talk with gauze in my mouth.) AND apparently I said "right on" to the nurse when she asked how I was doing. Uh huh. Right... :D

     I started to feel pain about 45 minutes after we left the oral surgeron's office. We then drove to Walgreen's to fill my perscription...there was a 45 minute wait. So my mom, being the good mommy that she is, drove me around until we got pick up my medicition. Once we got home, I set myself up in my bedroom. My mom brought up the pills and some yogurt and needless to say, the pain pills did their job.

      So since I got home from the surgery, I've gone through about 4 jello cups, 5 yogurts, 2 bowls of ice cream, and two gatoraide bottles. Hahaha I was so hungry and still am. I will most definitely be eating real food tomorrow...that is, if I can. If not, then I'm going to have at least scrambled eggs for breakfast and mashed potatoes for lunch! Yummy... :)

      I was really scared for the surgery and aftermath, but as usual, I was a worrywart. Everything has turned out fine (As fine as it can be for having four holes in your mouth!!) Let's see how tomorrow goes :)

Newbie!

2009-08-26T22:43:00.002-06:00

I'm very new to this...So I apologize if my page keeps changing but no new posts are added!

What's on my mind...

2009-08-26T18:36:00.000-06:00

My job can be rewarding. It can also be very stressful. Very. Stressful. This past month has been a rush of back-to-school shoppers, mothers complaining about prices, and weird smells. I work at a shoe store and August is one of our busiest months, next to the Christmas holiday shopping season.

What has bothered me the most this past month is not the kids, no. Not putting away shipping, that's easy. It's dealing with customers who think they can treat you like crap and still make a mess of your store. If we don't have your size, deal with it. And if we don't have the perfect shoe, why don't you design your own and stuff it where the sun don't shine, k? [It's amazing how much better I am starting to feel ;) ]

Another thing that has bothered me about my job is how other associates are treating me. I get along just fine with my manager and my co-worker; it's the other associates at other stores that annoy me. They treat me as if I can't comprehend what they are asking for or talking about. I know how to look for a shoe that their customer needs but has to come to my store for. I've worked at my job for a year now. Let me do it and leave me be! Please! I don't appreciate it when I have to be talked down to by customers AND employees. It's so not needed right now in my life.

So for those of you who are reading this. . .

PLEASE be nice to people who help you out at the stores you shop at.

And treat your co-workers with respect, too. Everyone has bad days,

not

just

you.

New Blog

2009-08-26T18:32:00.000-06:00

I decided to start this blog because I have nothing better to do. Also, because my sister has one and pretty much everyone else I know either uses Myspace or Facebook as a blog. I think having an official blog + a hard-copy, hand-written journal will give me a place to vent and think things out. So pretty much a lot of my entries might not always be happy or thrilling. Mostly just me blowing off steam.

So...enjoy!